Goodbye

Hey little baby
My precious little one
I love you
Like the sacred love
Jesus gave to humanity
My heart is broken my little kiddo
Daddy is strong
Daddy is trying to make you happen
Mommy? I'm not sure
She has not the will I feel
But it looks I have to give up on you
O little one
I think God wills it so
Daddy has a journey to undertake
Long and taxing
If I see you not in this world
I'll see you in heaven
I love you

Coin toss

I sit here
Drink on my fifth peg of whiskey
I love you like a rabid dog
But what do I do about your solipsism?
You're a fuckin woman
Marriage 2.0
Sorry I love you
But I'm not a buyer
Of marriage 2.0
Let's toss this coin
And see what's in store for us

M.A.D

Babe this is M.A.D
Mutually assured destruction
We're killing each other slowly
Love someone so much you hate their guts
You wear me down
As I wear you down
And as we do so our love grows
Toxic
What a fucking rush
You're the only love I've ever had
And you're killing me

Rock

Are you not a rock?
Standing firm against the tide
Are you not content?
With yourself
With all that you are
Are you so fucking weak?
Can you not shield your ears
From all the noise around you?
Are you not a rock?
Can you not walk with me?

Not for me

Not for me
This shallow puppy dog teenage love
Where you don't know yourself from another
When you can't stand alone like a rock
Don't stand beside me

Not for me
These fleeting passions
Ephemeral sparks of pleasure
If you cannot love something for ever
Do not love me

I love you Pt. 2

I know you only know fleeting vacuous emotions

Transient and temporary

Useless and corroded

I know you'll never feel the same way

As I do

Which is why I keep it secret

I'm angry with you.

This passion will consume me.

I love you.

Madly.

That's it.

The Gym

Did I tell you
That I hit the gym and fight classes
Because I feel useless
Without any physical activity everyday?

I lie ...

I hit the gym
To keep myself distracted
To keep my mind off you
To keep the pain that you cause
Out of my head

Abyss

I stand here on the precipice
Ready to fall into the abyss
I sell my love dearly
And this is the first  time it's up for sale
And also the last
Let me down and I'm finished
My love will be buried six feet under
And that dark tried I always feared is me
Will rise like a phoenix from the ashes

Choices

You have two choices my beloved
Erase the past from your head to be with me
Or have me erase you from my life

Tired

I'm tired of this
Tired of seeing my beloved
Selling her soul out to others
Before I came to her

I'm tired of this
Tired of fearing the future
Where my beloved will not be
What I see in these images

I'm tired of this
That my beloved bears my children
And this means that I do not get
The best she had to offer

I'm tired of this
O' my beloved can you hear me?
Can you hear my sigh?
That comes from the tiredness of anger

I'm tired of this
My dearest beloved
The love of my life

Trust

It's not about Trust
It never was
It never is
It never will be
It is about Boundaries
It is about Respect

Gentle Reminder

If you "accidentally" stumble upon your ex
I will NEXT you
If you take me to another goddamn discotheque
To meet your wannabe group of pretentious, incestuous "friends"
I will NEXT you
If you meet and entertain orbiters
I will NEXT you
If you continue to entertain conversations
With low-intellect, smart asses
Ostensibly your "friends"
But really orbiters in waiting
I will NEXT you

"If you aren't just plating her (in which case, who cares, when you hook up, it doesn't matter) then you are vetting her. In this case, you seriously want her to take herself out of the running. You shouldn't just be watching for it, you should be wanting it to happen."

Remember this motherfucker.

Anger Pt. 2

As I sit here rummaging through your past
And see how you gave the best part of your life
To different men who didn't earn it, nor deserve it
Who literally fucked you over, and didn't respect you
You looked into their eyes and told them you loved them
Do you know what the fuck love is?
You fucked them like the teenage slut that you were capable of being
Do you know what the fuck starfish sex is?
You've cycled through so many different men
Doing the same thing, repeating the same lines
Feeling the same feelings, giving the same love
How do I know what the fuck is left for me then?
Where is my share of that beautiful woman that I rightly deserved?
It's funny, when you tell me that you've saved the best for me
I laugh. Oh dear, the irony!
Yeah yeah I'm a good boy all-right
Taught all the right things. Taught to be a prudent slave
Taught to care. Taught not to hurt anybody
Sensitive to love. And all that crap.
But I am no fool, I see everything
Let us see then my love
Let us see what you've got for me

Forever

My beloved wife
You must understand
I did not choose you
You just came to me
At a point in my life
When I had seriously decided
I could share myself with none
Time has taught me to believe
That there is no one for me
Or so I said to myself
But then you come along
And force me to rethink my theories
This I promise you
After you there shall be none
You are it
And if you're not
Then there is no one
Either ways this makes you forever

I hate you

I hate you for your past
I judge you by your present
I love you for our future

Overthinking

Oh love of my life
I need to calm the fuck down
Take a deep breath
And stop overthinking about you

I love you

"Time divides
Too much and too little
And I love you
As a woman
As a human"
That's what she said
Or at least some shit like that
But my love is precious
And it does not come cheap
I'll never know if you'll ever understand
But I've found my woman
I've chosen my wife
She is you
And I love you

Toxic

I fear this love we're serving is toxic
And will be the very end of us
And we're gladly forsaking our lives
For the poison that you're dishing out to me
For once I am a dead man
It will be the very death of you

Happy

My dear to-be wife

My dear beloved

Did I shatter you last night?

Did I hurt you? 

On no it wasn't me

It was that other guy

I'm just so happy

To be with you ...

Next

Every chamber in my cold black heart is in love with you
While every nerve in my body is straining for a resounding next
Do not give me even a hint of a chance my love

Mini Me

Oh you little versions of me
I know you crave certainty
I know you want it for real
Now that you have found what you were looking for
But take your time and be not in a hurry
Release those phrenic thoughts
That run like electricity through your large tensed heads
Do not be like me
Get to her slowly
And get to her for sure

Inside

Skin to skin
You feel me within
I'm on the inside
Taking in the outside
Ghosts of the past released
Scar tissue diseased
This time I won't be tender
I'll take all of your surrender

Anger

Bang the fucking wheel till it breaks
And the hands are nice and bloodied
Deep breath & suck it all in
Shut my eyes and calm myself down
From a raging bull to a Zen Buddha
Your womb is mine
I fucking love you

Frame/Frame

A bit of your frame
A bit of mine
Waves come crashing
Against the rock face
Anger seethes
Jealousy bleeds
Upstartishly you usurpate
Ruthlessly I reinstate
Push and pull
The stick rebounds
And the drumbeat of battle rages on
Love is war

One direction

There is only one direction this is going my love
Down.

This time

This time I'm not going to fall in love so soon

Even though everything about you deserves exactly that

This time I'm going to make it work

I'll do whatever it takes and I'll do it slowly

This time I'll keep my distance for a while

Even though every nerve in my body craves the sensation of you

This time I know it's stupid to fall like a ton of bricks

And so I'll hold on to the ledge with all I've got

What are you? Where did you come from?

Why to me? And where do we go from here?

This time I'm slowly making a solemn promise to myself

That you are for real and this is it